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Bleeding heart cries out loud

What does a 16 year old knows about love? Nothing.

I have been hesitating whether to write this entry. Every time I open my blogger page, I chickened out because my mood will definitely be spoilt and I dont know whether it will be a good idea. But well, I guess this is just reality.

Anyway, like Edryn, Edelicia is over too. Since early December.

Dont ask how I exactly feel about the whole matter. I dont know either. Sometimes I feel happy about it. And sometimes, I feel depressed like anything. Dont want to bring up the past la but those who knows us should know that it has been a good long way together. I can swear its not a case of feelings fade, or a third party.

I dont grieve over his absence but I dont deny I still think of him, practically every quiet moment I have. My heart hurts. The pain in me is sometimes so much that its so hard to contain. Well, that guy is practically ’selling’ himself right now. Then I really wonder, was I actually used as a substitute? Or was it revenge on an innocent party? Fuck. Suddenly all those times spent, things we planned to do/ have done, moments shared together..It all turned worthless in just one day. Suddenly everything became memories in an instant. I’ve learnt. Learnt what cruelty meant. As well as how heartless one can be, even with love, for his own selfish interests. Actually I was too, but bah. Really wished we could have been more rational but sigh.

Aint talking about 2-3 months relationship, but fucking 2 and a half years +++.

But then again, at the start of the relationship, I actually told myself that the most I will give is 2 months. Thats it.

Because he was afraid to love, he has made me afraid to love now.

All I know is that I’ve tried my best.

Two people, with two different family backgrounds and two different interests in life. It wasnt meant to last. Was it?

I dont know. I really dont know.

Him : Never leave me ok?

I didnt. You left.

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Thanks to those who helped in one way or another. If you think you helped, thank you lah okay. Especially those who always kena scolding for nothing. Lol.

Dont want to bring painful memories to the next year so…Bye to 2007, 2008 here I come. I will be stronger, and better.

I promise.

PS : Btw, this entry is written NOT to gain sympathy you bitches and bastards.

Sentosa with daywee and ahdong

Actually I dont plan to blog unless I am damn bored. So because I am damn bored, I am here to blog.

HAHAHHAAHAHHA.

Ok, thought it was a clique outing but dont know why become only 3 people. Hmmmm. So ya, the main point is that we went to Sentosa. Stupid thing, made me go to Cineleisure for nothing. *Ahem*

Went to Garuda at Vivo City for supposedly lunch. The food, not bad leh. I dont mind going again lor.

Dewi : Is the rice free?
Waitress : Yes, the rice is free-flow.
Dewi : OMG REALLY GIVE ME MORE!

-_-

Took the skytrain. Took Peiqin’s card so she couldnt get in. LOL. Then that bitch went to do the same thing to me -.-..

Supposed to tan or something. But when we reached, 太阳下山了. Haha, we ended up playing ‘Happy Family’. I lost la, WTH. Noooooo. I swear they cheated! They cheated!!!! They cheated!!!!!!!!!!

We had bubbles too. Woooohoo.

Many many bubbles.

HI PREMA.

HHAHHAHHAHHA. Okay, not funny.

Peiqin is a joker. Seriously.

We were in this sitting position.

That picture is damn funny la, if you ask what the heck I was doing. I was actually quite amused at looking at my own reflection from the shades. Hahhaha.

Back to the story, Peiqin was blowing the bubbles so with the wind blowing towards the left, the bubbles kept going straight into that woman’s face. Although Peiqin knew about it, she just kept blowing the bubbles and we laughed until buay tahan. So we ended up in this position.

Made me almost kissed the sand. Great.

Lets runaway together ={D

SAY SAY SAY YAPPPPPPHOOOOOO!

I was supposed to play with the bubbles like a kid while Dewi blows them.

Looks more like I was slapping the bubbles lor.

I am a rabbit.

Hahaha, Dewi keep saying this picture is cute. Bah, she loves rabbits.

Nice picture lor.

After that we went back to Harbourfront Interchange for dinner. Freaking crazy. 3 of us had… Roti Prata + Carrot Cake + Rendang + One plate of vegetables + Chicken Chop + Hokkien Mee + Mee Goreng. OMG sia. Total madness. Obviously we didnt finish the food. Tsk.

Walked around Vivo City. Shopped abit. I like a jacket which I am forbidden to buy. Sai. We saw Dick Lee and Elvin Ng. Yeah. And Jonathan and Avril too.

Yayayaya. 2 more days, I say bye to this blog :D

Christmas 2007

SUNDAY, 23/12/07. BE-EARLY CHRISTMAS PARTY.

Nothing much lah. Usual family gathering at The Gardens, Bishan.

BBQ by the poolside first.

Cousinssssssssssssssssss.

Then went up to my uncle’s place for some celebration.

HAHHAHHAHHAHHAHHA.

Ok. Then we had the gift exchange. There was this funny game played to this gift exchange. Its damn difficult to explain but well, maybe if you ask and I like you, I might say :D

We played the “Blanket Game” (Dont know what it is really called la, I anyhow throw one name) after that. Its the same game that was played at my house on my Birthday. Yeah. Anyway, the game goes like this…

1.) Players are divided into 2 groups.
2.) There will be a blanket held high up that divides them.

3.) Each group sends a representative.
4.) When the blanket is dropped, the representative must shout the opposite group’s representative name.

5.) The one who shouts first win. The loser goes over to the other group.

All the aunties and uncles joined in. Laughed until can die please -_- There was one part, group B had only 2 members left. So they resorted to putting a soft toy as their representative.

LMAO. Such ingenious plan.

Hahha, then everybody couldnt take it anymore so we stopped playing. Had a bit of Karaoke session and by the way, it was already midnight by then. I am amazed the neighbors didnt knock on the door. Hhaah. Went back home at about 2am :)

MONDAY, 24/12/07. ADRIAN’S SOLEMNIZATION.

Cousins’ outing in the afternoon. Sheena, Markus, Marcel, Hansel, Kenny, Victoria and I. I was the one who imposed the ‘Late 1 minute, fine $1′ rule but I was the latest to reach. Dragged the twins with me. Damn stupid la, was late for 10 minutes but I ended up $21 poorer. Why? Because they havent return me my money -_-

Went to Cineleisure and lunched at Long John Silvers. We were like standing outside, deciding where to go then this guy just walked past us and threw up whatever he ate for breakfast/lunch. OMG. Freaking gross. He actually vomitted just outside a fast-food restaurant can? Pity the woman who had direct view of his puke.

So anyway, we had our lunch then Hansel went to throw the remaining crumbs at the birds outside then all of a sudden, like a million of them just swooped down from everywhere and it was like we were gona get attacked or something. As natural as a human reaction would be, we literally RAN away.

We caught the movie, Alvin and the Chipmunks after that.

WAH PIANG. DAMN CUTE LAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

But one thing…The girl sitting behind us was rather irritating. She kept saying whatever that was going to happen in the movie. Got really irritated then I turned behind and, “SSSSSSHHHHH!” then she kept quiet. I rock. Oh well, I dont mind watching it another time lor!

I love chipmunks :D (Dale misses Chip >,<)

After that we walked to Takashimaya, wanted to find Dewi but turned out she wasnt working today. Tamade -.- So we trained to Pasir Ris for another cousin, Adrian’s solemnization at Downtown East. Very cool leh.

We were supposed to pop the party poppers at the same time AFTER Adrian popped the champagne but some baka went to pop it at the wrong timing. LOL. So in the end, it was quite a mess.

Playing with the remaining.

Here are all those who went for the movie! Except the one on my lap.

I know I look damn blur. But this is the nicest picture still. Lol.

Cousins shot. A lot missing lah. If we were to have a ALL COUSINS shot, I think everybody would be shocked leh. I think got more than 30 or something o_O

Had to cover up, damn horrible.

Buffet dinner? Tea? Guess.

We got high with the balloons that were used for decorative purposes.

The kitchen’s over there!

BBQ again.

The barbecue man and his personal assistant.

Ok..So after dinner, we started walking around. Went to arcade and yeah. I found out a shocking fact about Marcel. HAHHA. Then the others decided on something ridiculous. They started collecting all kinds of sauces from Mcdonalds and bought stuffs from Cheers to embark on the world’s most disgusting drink as forfeit for Indian Poker. Ah, maybe not that exaggerating but still it was ZZZZZZZ!

Presenting….

I know it looks like diluted Milo or whatever but it isnt. Its a mixture of mayonnaise + Chilli Sauce + Curry Sauce + Jolly Shandy + Oolong Tea + Red Wine + Barbecue Sauce + Ice Lemon Tee + A WHOLE LOT OF OTHER STUFFS THAT I CANT REMEMBER. I dont think they even remembered what they put inside. My oh my, why do I have such disgusting cousins -_-

I was the first to drink! Maybe I was drunk or something although there wasnt any alcohol intake, I actually VOLUNTEERED to drink. Sigh. After one sip, I used a tissue paper to clean my tongue because it tasted damn gross and thats a even more stupid thing to do because the tissue paper ended up sticking onto my tongue and I practically ate the tissue paper. So yeah.

Felicia is a stupid girl :(

A few of us took a walk down Pasir Ris Park next. Talked about ghost stories. Stayed by the seaside for about an hour chatting. Then we headed back for the countdown together with the family.

We wish you a Merry Christmas~ We wish you a Merry Christmas~

Actually, this Christmas didnt turned out how I initially planned mentally. But its alright la, still got next year >.<

Once again, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!

I promise to be good next year! Santa, you should know what I want :(

AST 5 gathering + Apaches Camp

Basically…The last 2 days have been filled with activities with the Apaches sub-tribe 5/tribe that I dont have the time to use the computer lor. We took damn little pictures, opps. A lot of random pictures and VIDEOS.

THURSDAY, 20/12/07. APACHES SUB-TRIBE 5 GATHERING.

We were supposed to meet at 1pm at Cityhall Mrt Station. Peiqin and I were late, but we were like one of the earliest. Lol. Met Nicholas Kang and Edwin first. Then waited for Clement to come then we played a game of bowling. Sucked totally. Then slowly more people came…Ronda, Eugene, Daniel, Talleah and Wilson. Played another game of bowling which was much better. Heh. There was this little Caucasian boy who is like only 2? He dropped the ball into the drain, and the ball moved forward slowly before rolling backwards.

LMAO. Damn funny la.

Peiqin and Edwin.

Joker. Haha.

Wilson. Clement. Eugene. Daniel. Edwin.

Lunched at Cafe Cartel. We took the free bread and eat first then we sat there for like 15 minutes without ordering anything. Damn embarressing. We were like havoc-ing in there lah. Hahah.

Order taken by Eugene -_- I thought it was supposed to be the waiter’s name or something? Clueless.

Ronda, Peiqin and I shared the dish, St Louis Pork Ribs since we werent that hungry~

The bill.

I just realised the staff’s name is also Nicholas. We have 2 Nicholas! We have Nicholas Kang and Nicholas Lim. Tsk.

Anyway, some stuffs happened. Wilson’s $38 was being passed around the tribe mates and nobody wanted to return to him. Thank god I wasnt involved because I cant act. They made him go on his knees and beg Talleah for it when the money wasnt even with Talleah. Alright la, he had his pride. He die also wont kneel down. Haha.

I have this REALLY FUNNY video of the guys snatching Wilson’s food but dont think I can put it up. I might get killed for doing so :(

After that, Nicholas and Clement left first and then we trained to Plaza Singapura because Ronda needed to go there.

At Citylink.

The guys suddenly carried Wilson up and Ronda started shouting, “Ehh! Campus Superstar!” then started screaming. Hhahha wtf.

No movies available at Cathay and PS, so we walked to Cineleisure and booked a room. Watched the movie, ‘Isolation’. Freaking stupid movie. Whole movie is about Cows. LOL. But oh well, its cheap anyway. We paid a dollar each for that movie, somemore its M18. The staff name is Tamil Vanan too. Great, we currently know 3 Tamil Vanan -_-

Dont ask why the picture so blur, I dont know why either.

Wanted to have our dinner at Kobayashi but full house. ARGH. Oh and we saw Adriano with a lot of girls. HAHA. Actually we saw a lot of people at town. Saw Isaac Lim too. Yeah so had our dinner at Hong Kong Cafe.

Peiqin’s Pork Ramen rocks la. Hahha.

After that, the most unexpected thing happened……We went clubbing.

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HAHHA. Dont be stupid ok.

We had a impromptu sleepover at my place. Wilson, Edwin, Peiqin and Talleah. Walao eh, they all like damn steady la. I was merely suggesting then who knows really end up at my house. Lol. -_-”

Everybody loves Eeyoreeeeeee.

WOOT!

Fights. Fights. Fights.

There were a lot of funny videos la. Yea. VIDEOS.

At 12am which supposedly means it was a new day which also means it was Edwin’s birthday. We sang a birthday song for him :D
Guess he was kind of shocked. Ahhh.

First one to knock out was Talleah. I dont know what we did la, it was actually nothing much but it wasnt boring -.- At about 3am, Edwin needed to go off because of some stuffs.

Wilson at 3am. LOL.

He kept rubbing his eyes until his eyes were really swollen thats why that face. “I gona evolve soon…” LOL. My hair messy, I know. Result from pillow fights.

Cant really see, but they were trying to do a hand stand on the road. Hahha.

Came back, used the computer for awhile. Laughed at Wilson’s CSS’s Videos. Then that guy also buay tahan and we all went to bed at 5am. Talleah said she will go off at 6am but ended up dragging. Hahha. Everyone woke up at about 10am? Somewhere there la. Then when somebody wanted to go off, somebody else didnt feel like moving. The whole cycle repeated. After lunch, they were supposed to go when Wilson just went back to bed and fell into a deep sleep -.-…

After he woke up, we started doing something that I will never expect myself to ever do. LOL. Oh well. Then everybody decided to leave at 3pm when we were supposed to reach Ngee Ann Poly for Apaches Camp at 1.30pm.

Wonderful.

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FRIDAY AND SATURDAY, 21/12/0. APACHES CAMP AT NGEE ANN POLY.

Peiqin and I only reached at 4.30pm when I promised Nic Kang we would be there by 4pm. Hhaa opps. Damn sian at the beginning, because we just went there and helped to ‘end’ the games section. And moreover, we were merged with other tribes. Eeeee, I dont like.

Our dorm whiteboard.

Heard we got the biggest room…Which is true la. Hahaha.

Changed then it was Glam night!

I am short, I know T_T

Wilson and Nicholas Lim also reached.

We were splitted into different groups. Heng I had Sylvester, Longking and Isaac with me. Haha the rest all dont know de -.- Not fair lur, the other 2 girls from my table were the emcees. So we were short of having representatives. Stupid. Then they had the prize for Mr & Miss Sizzle Sexy and Mr & Ms Apache.

Omg, Nic Kang lost one vote in the Mr Apache category. Wtf!

Nic Lim’s iPod Touch.

Damn cool. I also want. I gona get it I tell youuuuuuuuuuuuu.

Yeah, and just as we were happily exploring his iPod touch, they were having the nominees of the ‘Cutest couple’ and Eugene actually nominated me and Nicholas Lim.

CHAOOOOOOOOOOOOCHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEBYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Simi cutest couple, siao or what?!?! Its damn weird la what the heck. Bobian had to go up front. Peiqin got sabotaged also. Lol.

Had the mass dance again before dinner officially ended. Then went back to our dorms.

The two Nicholas fighting.

Bullied. Hahha.

So cute leh.

I meant that Eeyore.

We took many of that above pictures. LOL. Because everytime the guy said 1..2…3.. Nic Kang will do something to make the photographer take again. For eg, he will shout and say, “EH I WAS SHOUTING LAH. TAKE AGAIN!” Laughed so much la.

After that, we had a supposedly surprise birthday cake for Edwin. But it was all screwed up when he came before we even lighted the candles. We couldnt find lighters! In the end the candles werent even lighted -_-

The main focus of the next picture is DANIEL’S FACE.

Kind of weird though, because I thought the birthday boy was supposed to get smashed? -_-

Again. Guess who is right at bottom.

Yeah me. What the heck. They didnt want to let me sleep -_-

Our room was used to screened ‘Shutter’ so people from other tribes came to our room. Ok la, to me it wasnt that scary. Because the scary parts were all expected. The story is basically about this couple, but the guy is such a bastard (You have to watch to know what he did) The girl couldnt take it and suicided then she came back to haunt the guy. Kind of saddening. She just kept haunting him.

Ok. The movie ended at about 1am. Then we went to another room to watch ‘Enchanted’ which is kind of stupid because I watched it already. Oh well. Everybody couldnt stop going, “I’ve been dreaming of a true love’s kiss~” throughout the camp man. Lol. Only managed to slept at 5am. Couldnt really sleep. Was damn cold.

Woke up to this scene.

Lmaoooo~

Had some warm up exercise which was mass dance and some games. Then breakfast which was cereal. Heh. Had some telematch after that. SLs VS Red Campers. Ok la, we lost. But you know how they always try to make everything a draw? Hahaha.

I paired with Talleah during the telematch. We had to tie our ankles together, blow balloons and carry them to the next station without using hands. -_-”

(Will add pictures when Talleah sends me~)

Had some eating snacks session, did cheers then it was break camp. But my sub-tribe, being the most sporting/enthusiastic/whatever, we stayed back lur :)

Look at all the snacks on the floor. Lol.

Sub-tribe 5. Heh.

Look closely at Wilson’s hair.

Talleah and Shafik!

He’s really cute. Hahha. Even the guys were jealous of him being ‘handsome’.

Message board!

Packed up, then had to leave already. Boohoooos.

They were in the girls’ toilet! Haha.

After that we went to the bus stop, slacked for a very very long while because we didnt know where to go. Then we we decided to go back to Ngee Ann Alumni or whatever it is called to eat. Again, we took very long to get our orders done until the people kept staring at us.

Because Marvin had this 20% discount card, we kept having refunds -_- Ended up using the money to buy even more food. Lol. The guys actually had 2 main dishes. Dang!

Eugene took this.

Nice ;)

Left after lunch. Wanted to go Sentosa but gave it a miss..Only Wilson and Edwin went, haha. Thank god we didnt go..Peiqin, Nicholas Lim and I actually fell asleep in the bus. Lol~

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Fun is over, time to emo again D:

4C gathering

I am amused.

Lalalala =P

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If you think you can live without someone in your life, picture yourself in his/her funeral wake. Immerse yourself in the feeling of not being able to see him/her forever. Will you be just tearing, or practically bawling your lungs out? Think.

Damn, thats what I always do that I think its driving me into insanity =_=

Tis the season to be jolly

Was about to whine about not having a Christmas tree this year when….

TADA~

I so have the urge of organising a Christmas party now. Noooooooooo!

Have a merry merry Christmas! =D